Bouncing baby boy

I had a son named him Ian Daniel Way, he is great I think he's starting to get blue eyes which I'm happy about. His bruising and sores on his head are healed and his cord has fallen off. Now I give him baths in his baby bath tub, he doesn't like it very much but is getting better. I will make a water baby out of him soon :)  I guess mothers only tell the good parts of motherhood for a reason, if women really knew everything about having a baby most probably wouldn't. Exhaustion, frusteration, hormones out of wack, and in pain if you had a c-section. For the first few weeks it was hard just getting up, then once I got up I was hunched over till I could stand up straight. First few weeks with a new baby I would say have been the hardest so far. I think me and Allan have almost the hang of things. I would say I'm almost back to normal! I can get up without trouble now, not really taking any pain meds just mostly for a headache I've been fighting for the past week. Ian has been sleeping for about 3 hours at a time during the night yay! Allan takes the first shift the evening till Ian actually goes to sleep so I can get a couple hours of sleep. I am usually in bed no later then 10:30pm now. No more 2am reading a book :( an no more sleeping in till 11am. I am also usually up for 10am to feed Ian.

I have been reading a lot of these amazing posts on Facebook about c-sections and stay at home moms (which I will be) and what's called mommy wars. I loved the mommy wars post all about loving more and judging less no matter what you decide to do whether breastfeed or formula, religion or no religion, stay at home or work.

That was my biggest issue and I think goes for a lot of new mothers being afraid of being judged by other moms. Why judge? Every mother will know what is best for her child and will definately try her hardest to make sure her child grows strong and healthy.

I know it is ideal to breastfeed and I tried I did but found out my supply is not enough to feed my baby not even for one feeding. I produce maybe 2oz a day when I was pumping every 3-4 hours. I have decided it was not worth my time and stress to pump so much for such little amounts. So formula it is. Ian sometimes eats 4oz in one feeding now, he is growing and fast! I've shed many tears over this. Everything I planned for the baby just seemed to not work out at all. Wanted a natur birth went in for a c-section and wanted to breastfeed but not able to. Ian is still healthy even with formula and I am happy. I've accepted the fact that I won't be breast feeding but still pumping a little bit when I feel full? But still that isn't much either. Formula has its bright side though Allan can now feed him when I need a break or feeling ill. He can help more and does amazing :) plus easier to go out, here's a bottle and formula and head out. Allan supports my decision and a lot of my family does too.

Recovery is all going great I'm able to carry the car seat now and the stroller, I don't very often but I'm able to now :) I have also lost almost all of my pregnancy weight I gained :) I didn't gain very much only around 40lbs. Not bad :)

Ian is amazing, I can't get over being able to dress him up all cute like!! And fall asleep cuddling him :) he's so cute! I love love my little family :)

Story of my sons birth

Well it all started Sunday Jan 5, 2014 morning as I had some bleeding and leaking of fluids so my sister in law drove me to the hospital to get checked out. Everything was fine doctor said it was just my cervix softening. Then that evening I started to get some contractions not powerful ones. Then at 2:44am contractions started to get more powerful but still far apart. Then at 4:15am I timed one and it was just under 5mins apart. Called hubby from work and he packed his stuff an headed home. Sister in law drove me once again to the hospital, I called my mom let her know I was going into labor. 4:45 am at hospital an been admitted and was 2-3cm dilated. Still having contractions with the odd painful one. By later in the morning my family knows I've gone into labor via text messages. I got doped up on morphine got 2 doses of it by the time Allan arrived around 10:30am. Drs and nurses didn't want to do anything till Allan arrived. 11:30 dr came in to break my water which surprisingly was already broken. As I ask for more morphine (I was scared of having an epidural) so before they gave me more nurse checked me and I was already fully dilated. Called the dr in and prepped the room. So from 12 or 12:30 I was pushing till about 3pm. Pushing straight for almost 3 hours is exhausting and so painful!! Dr let me have a break and offered the epidural which I gladly excepted. I didn't realize they'd make a drugged up pregnant women sign so many papers while she is laboring! Set me up for the epidural and dr used the vacuum first and then the forcepts, still baby way did not want to come out. Stubborn just like mom and dad :) so then I was talked to about getting a c-section which was the #1 thing I did not want! I was terrified! Was prepped for surgery and went in where I met up with Allan. He was so helpful and amazing throughout my whole labor. He stayed with me until baby was born and being transported. 5:20pm our son was born weighing 6lbs 10 ounces not very big. I didn't see my son until about 7:15pm when he and Allan both came into the room. Everyone is healthy and my recovery is going alright doesn't help that I've been up all night with a baby spitting up mucus. I slept every other hour. Then when day staff came into work, people have been coming in constantly to check me an baby and give me antibiotics ect. Our poor sons head is all red and bruised on top from the vacuum. Last difficult thing is to get him to breastfeed. He is now latching ok but won't suck very much before letting go. Other then that drs an nurses are all saying that I need to get up today and walk around. Hopefully by tomorrow afternoon I will be discharged and sent home for the rest of my recovery :) other then over heating and getting itchy from sweat we are (baby and I) doing well an healthy. I'm told not do anything lift anything ect for a few weeks. Allan will be home as he is on parental leave. Hubby an I are both extremely tired, he sleeps on an uncomfortable cot thing. But it's a private room which we wanted if we couldn't have the enhanced private which were all occupied. See what today brings, been up most of the night with baby an haven't realized till now how much help I need everything now. I'm a very independent person an don't like asking for help. It'll be nice to not to do anything other then take care of baby :)

PREGO!

Ok I have been really slacking in the blog but old news I am now pregnant with my first child! YAY! so excited! other news hubby now works 7 on 7 off so he leaves wednesday nights and comes home wednesday nights!!!!! work so much better. 
Anyways questions to be answered.

when is my due date? Jan 16, 2014 (did this on purpose cause I hate the number 13 haha) 
how far along am I? I am 32 weeks but will be 33 weeks in 3 more days
total weight gain? I think around 20lbs 
maternity clothes? Yes pants especially but not always shirts as I wear stretchy non maternity shirts sometimes :) 
Stretch marks? NOPE!! YAY!!
Sleep? depends on the night. Some nights I sleep very well and other nights I am up all night tossing and turning. One night the baby wouldn't stop kicking so I had to get up walk around and fell asleep on the couch.
Miss anything? Yes I do! I miss wearing my pencil skirt and silver jeans. 
Food Cravings? Nothing just loving my treats (think I give the baby a sugar high sometimes oops) 
Gender? We decided not to find out so I have to wait till delivery to find out 
Labor signs? Um I dont think so? 
Belly Button in or out? ITS STILL IN! HAHA 
Wedding rings on or off? Off as my rings started to become difficult to take off and was impossible to take off when my heat flashes started. 

I had no morning sickness YAY!! I have all the big items needed like a bassinet/crib, a change table, dresser, clothes (boy/neutral/girl), diaper bag, um bedding, a swing, a bouncy chair and blankets. You name it I probably have it lol me and my mom got really excited and had fun baby shopping :). I am taking prenatal classes and learning so much! 

Big plans for next year! 3 weeks after my due date my little sister goes on a mission to Halifax Canada!! CAN'T BELIEVE IT! Then the rest of my friends come home from their missions! 

It is really exciting a lot of my friends are also pregnant! so my baby gets to become friends with my friends babies :) so very exciting for next year :) 

oh yes here are some pictures! 

13 weeks 

19 weeks

28 weeks

30 weeks

Crazy...Busy.....

So last time I blogged I was really depressing and just the next day I wanted someone to kick some sense to me and get me to realize how good life is for me now.

Just the next day I went out with a couple ladies and they started talking about their lives like us ladies do. I soon realized that my life is amazing! and Allans job is the reason for it. So happy with my husbands job it really gives us great options. Really happy about it too a little sad that he does have to leave for 8 days but it comes with the job.

This week was crazy busy!! Tuesday I did nothing! but Wednesday I went with my niece and nephew to this bouncy castle place spent all afternoon there! the poor kids were so tired afterwards but still didn't want to leave :) So much fun!
Then Thursday good ol' V-day well I went and saw Safe Haven it was awesome! i loved it! Then went and babysat for the rest of the night which was fun.
Then Friday I went and got a haircut!!! turned out so nice. Then probably the best thing I've done all week I baked cookies with my little buddy that lives upstairs :) he has been asking me for days about cookies and if I had any and I never did so I made a deal with him that when I was free we would make cookies. Apparently he was super excited to make cookies. We made huge cookies!
Saturday nothing too exciting Sunday I felt like I was going to fall on my face while wearing my heels it was icy and snowy dangerous weather for high heels that don't have grip. Plus I was so hyper! it was bad I was like shaking in my seat during church! It has been a great week of no work.

Oh yes this week I have finally started working out again GO ME!
I have totally hooked on this tv series called The A-Team so old! but I love the show! favorite character is between Face and Mudock. Such a great show!!

That has been my week :D been busy, boring and crazy! been good but tomorrow and this coming week is going to be better!! Allan comes home tomorrow so excited!! and his birthday is coming up so that's a celebration for us to dress up and go out to dinner.
Gonna be a fun week!!

Alas Alone Again

well lets see.....LOTS has happened (well not really) since I last posted so I had a good news years except Allan left Jan 1st so that wasn't fun waking up at 5:30am after only 4ish hours of sleep. Nothing else is really new just worked lots in January and now I dont work till March 22!!!! SO HAPPY! annual closure for maintenance is happening now till March 22 when the pool reopens.

It is really weird when Allan flies to work I don't get all depressed or sad that much but when he leaves monday night for work I am like a total wreck crying sniffling. I don't really understand it maybe because Tuesdays I at least have one more night with him which is really nice then I drop him off at the airport and go back to bed till like 11am.

As by the title you have probably already guessed it Allan is gone and I am dreading this week a little bit. Yup it is Valentines day in 4 days and once again I am alone for it. Just a few more years and I will him for Valentines Day :) but oh well I get him for Christmas :) and for my birthday this year and our anniversary so it could be a lot worse.

My big Valentines Day is being spent babysitting my lovely niece and nephew. My nephew is my valentine this year! A lovely night of playing with him and sister.Oh yes and watching GLEE!! no day could be better then the day Glee is on!! Love that show!!!!! I will get through this week like I always do every time he leaves.
Oh yes I also have started Instagram what has come over me! first blogging now instagram?

Allan did something before he left he usually doesn't. He had me name the benefits of having this job like;
1. A house to live in
2. Vacations
3. He gets 3 weeks off now and again which with an normal job he wouldn't be able to do that.
4. 2 vehicles
5. I can go shopping now and again

I leave little love notes in Allan's backpack when he leaves which is fun sneaking in his bag. lol

Oh yes we gave a talk in church yesterday not too much fun but it went it good. Seriously thought that I would have a heart attack it was pounding so hard. Now that I have written all these benefits down I am not that sad now but yes it still sucks being alone for 8 days. And only 2 shifts he has to drive and then he flies till April when we are on vacation again (nothing exciting just day trips mainly). We have to save money so we can build our new house!! :) excited to start building a brand new house but then I am also not very good with change once I get comfortable with something.

Anyways that is me being sad and just had to write it down. Life is good just got to find ways to stay busy for the week to go by fast. Have a great week everyone and Happy Valentines Day.

Hawaii 2012

okay so in december I went to Hawaii for my Christmas present from my hubby :)

AMAZING!! such a great time!! so here it is my post about my lovely trip of escaping the -20C some weather and going to the sunny +28 HAWAII!!!!

So we left Dec. 4 and came home Dec. 16

Early morning flight 6:55am but of course whenever I fly with hubby which last time it was our honeymoon something has to go wrong. Plane delayed till 9!! because of maintenance so we missed our connecting flight :'( Instead of spending an afternoon relaxing on the beach I was waiting for the next plane which was 6 hours later!! didn't get to hawaii till about midnight and didn't get to the hotel till about 4am our time. WHAT A LONG DAY! I just like complaining about it forgive me. But the people at the airport were really generous towards us since they didn't want us waiting 6 hours at the gate, they gave us $20 each towards food in the airport and a free hotel room at the Fairmont hotel in the airport. BEAUTIFUL hotel best one I've probably ever stayed in. Shampoo smelled soo good! it was nice even if it was only for a few hours.

Ok so honeymoon time in case your wondering, went to San Juan Peurto Rico and had a layover in Toronto and the airline lost our luggage and didn't get it till 3 days later! but we got a bunch of money from the airline to buy our necessities.

Our hotel was kind of ghetto lol didn't have very good sound proof walls woke up to the neighbors having "fun" in bed. haha,
This was in Waikiki, Oahu.
went to this veteran cemetary that was in a crater it was cool.
A military museum awesome! saw american tanks and japanese tanks.
Went on a tour to Kualoa Ranch where every movie that was ever filmed in Hawaii was filmed there. So Jurassic Park (saw that famous dead tree), You, Me, and Dupree, Mighty Joe Young, 50 First Dates, Journey 2, Godzilla (his footprint had to be filled in with dirt because it is a ranch and cows kept falling into print at night), Pearl Harbour and a bunch of other movies I've never hear of lol.

Later on we went to the Laie LDS Temple so beautiful!! Love the driveway area up to the temple very creative how they did it. If I lived in a mansion I'd want my driveway being that way :) haha
POLYNESIAN CULTURAL CENTRE!!!! how much fun can you have in one place??
went to the buffet dinner and the show! Wow I was truly amazed of how they did it. I really enjoyed the show and the whole place its great experiencing the different cultures.
One day we drove all around the Island and visited basically all the beaches! haha and there's always surfers at every beach! North Shore Beach people were setting up drum roll!!!! PIPEMASTERS!! AHH! a very popular surfer competition and there was tonnes of surfers there and more were getting in the water. We just sat there and watched surfers biff it (mean to say I know but it's fun to watch) they were all good.
We watched a 2 hour parade! longest parade I've ever been too! the Pearl Harbor Parade. It was ok lots of people cheerleaders, cars, motorcyclists, cloggers, and Miss Teen Hawaii and a bunch of other missies lol
Oh I forgot best part our rental car was a ford taurus! huge car!anyways went to Pearl Harbor before we left the island to go to HAWAII BIG ISLAND! yay! Pearl Harbor was awesome Allan loved it as he likes big ships and submarines. Saw the peace treaties between U.S.A and Japan and the spot it was signed. Plus Hangar 79! that is still damaged from WWII and all the planes that were used. Plus the plane that was sent on the special mission after Hawaii got bombed and it is HUGE!

Then we left the Island :( and went to another one :) YAY! haha, stayed in this townhouse which was awesome because we did laundry for FREE!! but sadest thing I think I forgot my sweater there (it was not a cheap sweater either!! GRRR). It was super fun went to Mount Loa and drove up it in a ford focus haha not a fun drive up in a small vehicle like that. It was COLD! but we saw the world observatories, and the sunset. VOLCANOES! theyre always fun walked on 22yr lava and lava that wasn't even 2 years old! So the lava switched flow directions and wiped out this community and now not even 2 years later they've rebuilt upon the lava. It's an interesting sight seeing all this black and just houses on top of it. We saw lava well the reflection of it wasn't allowed to get closer towards this crater that has lava flow. Still cool.

Then after all that volcano stuff we flew on the smallest plane I've ever been on! one propeller plane fits about 9? I was sitting right behind the co-captain and could see the gizmos they use to fly the plane and we never flew past 8000ft it was like a tour plane. then MAUI!! I loved it not as touristy as Oahu but not as dead as the big island. Did the beach there walked to the mall just down the beach. Saw a magic show it was cool to see. SCUBA DIVING!! what fun! loved it! and I am now a certified diver :) YAY YAY!! it sucked that we had to get salt water in the eyes for the class but everything went good. Last day there we just relaxed on the beach :) and before we left the hotel did a goodbye ceremony for us and gave us laies which I really like.

here are a few pictures of my trip. in no particular order.

 Green sand beach! only accessible one in the world!

 Diamond Head Crater

Only reminder that it is Christmas time

Akaka Falls

 the red is lava

2012 at a glance

Hello!!!!

I saw a blog that did a timeline of 2012 and what they did so I've decided to do it :) so much happened in 2012!!!!!

January 2012

I got my wedding dress!!!!! :D
and did engagement photos!














February

Me and Allan went to Jasper for his birthday

March

nothing exciting really happened lol

April

WEDDING!!
Honeymoon to the Caribbean!

May

nothing exciting either lol

June

just enjoying married life :)

July

went down south to visit my family

went quading too :)

















August

did a triathlon with my siblings
Visited my family :)
did a 40km hike in 3 days

September

Dont remember what happened lol haha

October
Road trip to USA!

November

Was not a fun month, Allan did 11 days on and 2 days home it sucked!!

December
Christmas!!
Hawaii!!!
fun stuff!!

Hope everyone had a wonderful New Years :)